Friday, April 30, 2010
Hey there everyone!! Im not sure if anybody will even read this. I dont blame them either, I haven't been a good blogger in such a long, long time. I just got back from the Intensive Care Unit that my mom is resting in after her heart surgery she had today. They put a defibrillator (sp?) in and shocked her heart back into rhythm. My sister is staying the night with her. See, she has been having issues with her heart lately, and they think the Leukemia is the reason for it. It was hard seeing her lay there, with the thingy sticking out of her skin. She is so tough. The toughest of everyone in my family. And she is fighting hard for us. Today has been such a emotional day for me. I miss my Chad. He laughed at me more than anyone ever has, and he made me laugh more than anyone ever has. He is still my best friend. Lately, I have felt God so much. And its the best feeling ever. He has laid some things on my heart, and Im so excited about it!! I want to help people. I want to work for Jesus. I dont want to just get by in life, and it be easy. I want to help the less fortunate. I have felt that way for such a long time, but I feel now is the time to get to it. I cant just keep talking about it, or ignore it. So in the next few weeks, I plan to get started and yes, I am very nervous about it and scared, but I know its the right thing to do. I will update soon and let you all in on it. Well I would post some recent pics of my sweet miracle, but I have not taken any in a while. I feel bad for that, but Im seriously trying to be the best mommy I can. He deserves the world! I love, LOVE, love you all so much!!